just this morning. received the worst news possible... jean passed away. seriously, no i'm not playing around. she really passed away. and ruth and i received the news during church and she just broke down. i feel really sad for her because she was really close to jean. but. i just dont know how to console her. i couldnt find the right words to say. i just couldnt. and i did nothing. except to just stand there and watch as her tears fell. i felt something i didnt feel for a long long time. i felt...lost. i. just. couldnt do anything. i'm sorry ruth. damn, i hate letting people whom i'm close to down. why am i so useless? i cant even console my "sister". i'm really really sorry, ruth.